LEAH: Hi, I’m Leah Carey and this is Good Girls Talk About Sex. I spent the first 42 years of my life being a very good girl. I only had sex inside committed relationships and the sex I had was pretty boring. Sometimes it hurt but most of the time, I just didn’t feel much of anything at all. Why didn’t I experience the ecstasy other women talk about? Why did I have fantasies about things that I never heard other normal women talk about? Why didn’t my body respond the way that I wanted it to?

Clearly, I was bad in bed. I was deviant. And worst of all, I was probably broken. But then, in 2017, I had an opportunity to leave everything behind and travel the United States for a year. I called it my freedom tour!

Little did I know, it would become my tour of sexual freedom. I dove deep into what it means to embrace my sexuality. I studied sexual communication, boundaries, consent, and I found partners who are as concerned about my pleasure as they were about their own. It turns out I wasn’t broken at all! I had just been too scared to come out and play.

All of that boring sex wasn’t the result of being bad in bed. It was not knowing how to advocate for myself and my desires. And those fantasies that I thought made me deviant were actually incredibly normal. But we’re also so scared of looking not normal that we don’t say them out loud.

So this podcast is a place to start breaking that silence. We will share conversations with all sorts of women about sexuality, what turns them on, what confuses them, what did they learn about being a good girl. If it intrigues you, the way it intrigues me, subscribe to this podcast so you won’t miss a single episode we launch in early 2019.

Until then, here’s a taste of the voices you’ll hear in Season 1 of Good Girls Talk About Sex. [MUSIC]

SPEAKER 1: I have to really know you. I have to trust you. I have to feel good about letting you in there and then you have to be very okay with me telling you exactly what to do because you’re near a very sensitive area of my body. So I find that almost more intimate and more connecting to somebody than intercourse.

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SPEAKER 2: I remember in middle school inviting my friends over and we used use my mom’s vibrator and pass it around and acknowledge how good it felt. But none of us that that it was sexual necessarily, we just knew that it felt really good when we put it in that area. It was really innocent.

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SPEAKER 3: It took a long time for me to call myself fat. In terms of my sexuality, it’s been hard to have the lights on or where I want to be in top but it’s never worked because I had a really big stomach and big thighs. That’s all I was thinking about like I couldn’t let that go and I couldn’t enjoy myself fully and be present in the moment.

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